the dinner:
check out the bites taken into the naan. i knew dinner was going to be rough from the get-go... i munched as the soup was in the microwave, as if to say i don't want a real, formal dinner. but then i realized that i'd better be as rigid as possible, or else the disorder would win out.
i ate quickly, and it was not very enjoyable. i usually eat fairly slowly (i think), and so this felt impulsive, out of control. i had to fight the ed voice throughout the meal. i think had i not left shortly after finishing, the night would have ended very differently. i have mixed feelings about this... i am happy that i didn't succumb to the ed, but on the other hand, i feel weak for the power that the ed still has over me-- the only thing i could think of was to leave?! <-- geez i am seriously too critical of myself!
so... i went to target looking for cheap, wide plastic bangles that i could crochet over (!)... and they DIDN'T HAVE ANY! you all know the kind... plastic, bright colors, rounded on the sides... i was sure they would have them. so instead, i walked around the store and ended up spending $30... here's what i got:
a cute, green belt (s. - i highly encourage belts over shirts!):
an orla kiely plate to match the mug i bought last time:
a plastic monkey cup because i am still 6, apparently:
a pleather purse... still cute, though!:
and just as i was about to leave, i saw this on the clearance rack for $4:
(not actually my picture)
what is it, you ask? magnets:
except the big ring in mine was black, not yellow. i ripped the package open as soon as i got home, so i forgot to take a picture.
but where's the big circle?
SERIOUS COOLNESS. so target, you disappoint me with your lack of bangles. but with a little creativity........ anyway, turns out the magnets aren't very strong to begin with, so i won't be slamming into anything. i can't wait to wear it tomorrow!
i didn't want a big snack, so i just had a crisp, fuji apple.
it's past my bedtime, but at least tomorrow is LATTE day
OMG YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are NOT weak for walking out. That is the STRONGEST thing you could do - to refuse to even be around temptation and just get the hell out of there! You are so fucking awesome.
Forever 21 has bangles. ;) So I might have a present for you next time we meet up...
luuuv the target loot and the reassurance about belts :)
ReplyDeleteand i agree with hope -- STRONG for walking out! awesome.