the dinner:
check out the bites taken into the naan. i knew dinner was going to be rough from the get-go... i munched as the soup was in the microwave, as if to say i don't want a real, formal dinner. but then i realized that i'd better be as rigid as possible, or else the disorder would win out.
i ate quickly, and it was not very enjoyable. i usually eat fairly slowly (i think), and so this felt impulsive, out of control. i had to fight the ed voice throughout the meal. i think had i not left shortly after finishing, the night would have ended very differently. i have mixed feelings about this... i am happy that i didn't succumb to the ed, but on the other hand, i feel weak for the power that the ed still has over me-- the only thing i could think of was to leave?! <-- geez i am seriously too critical of myself!
so... i went to target looking for cheap, wide plastic bangles that i could crochet over (!)... and they DIDN'T HAVE ANY! you all know the kind... plastic, bright colors, rounded on the sides... i was sure they would have them. so instead, i walked around the store and ended up spending $30... here's what i got:
a cute, green belt (s. - i highly encourage belts over shirts!):
an orla kiely plate to match the mug i bought last time:
a plastic monkey cup because i am still 6, apparently:
a pleather purse... still cute, though!:
and just as i was about to leave, i saw this on the clearance rack for $4:
(not actually my picture)
what is it, you ask? magnets:
except the big ring in mine was black, not yellow. i ripped the package open as soon as i got home, so i forgot to take a picture.
but where's the big circle?
SERIOUS COOLNESS. so target, you disappoint me with your lack of bangles. but with a little creativity........ anyway, turns out the magnets aren't very strong to begin with, so i won't be slamming into anything. i can't wait to wear it tomorrow!
i didn't want a big snack, so i just had a crisp, fuji apple.
it's past my bedtime, but at least tomorrow is LATTE day .
OMG YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are NOT weak for walking out. That is the STRONGEST thing you could do - to refuse to even be around temptation and just get the hell out of there! You are so fucking awesome.
Forever 21 has bangles. ;) So I might have a present for you next time we meet up...
luuuv the target loot and the reassurance about belts :)
ReplyDeleteand i agree with hope -- STRONG for walking out! awesome.