bojangles wimp-out

pre-run snack:

small square (though the pic makes it look huge) of my newest favorite granola bar (whole foods). it's a great buy because a large square (4 x this) costs about $2, and it is SO much better than any clif/energy bar out there (imho). although i'd say 1/2 the package is more like the size of a clif bar.
** 1 starch ** (well actually it's probably more like a small mess of starch/protein/other but i'm too lazy to think that hard)

breakfast. my coffeemaker is having issues again... only about 1/3-1/2 the amount of beans were ground into this, so my cup is superweak . must contact the company for help. so i may be running out for coffee later. and yes, that is a xmas mug.

mix pb puffins, ~1/4 cup ezekiel raisin grapenuts-esque cereal, ~1/4 cup frozen blueberries, soymilk... plus a small peach and 1/2 of a banana on the side
** 2 starch, 1 dairy, 1.5 fruit **

so yesterday, some people at work were talking to our UK visitors, and mentioned that they MUST try the ultimate southern experience... bojangles. i then confessed to my friend that i had never had it myself, and she said that we should go... that it's an experience (and she's an overall healthy eater, with similar tastes to mine). so i said OK and we decided we'd go for lunch today.

i was thinking that it wouldn't be a problem... that it's only 1 meal... and i know that is true, but on the other hand i can also imagine it causing me to freak out afterwards and slip from my mealplan. i know i'd be OK going there and would eat a reasonable portion, but i don't know that i would still be able to keep up with the rest of the day without feeling like i had to cut back on everything else i ate. so i txted my friend this morning and let her know i'm going to take a raincheck on her invite (she knows about my disorder) and that i was planning on packing lunch today... but that i would bring us an afternoon treat .

so i packed lunch and a morning snack:

clockwise from top-right:
morning snack: wallaby pear yogurt
lunch: tiny portion leftover veggies/couscous, leftover chicken cut up with bell pepper and avocado to put into a toasted whole wheat pita (i've really done well to use up all those chicken leftovers!)
** 1 dairy / 2 starch, 2 protein, 2 veg, 2 other **

and the surprise treat for me & my friend @ work?

chocolate-dried cherry cakes from the weekend (i had put them in the freezer)
** 2 starch, 1 other **
yum!

a smart move, i think. a coworker had overheard my friend & me talking about bojangles, and said to me "oh you have to go... you'll gain ten pounds just walking into the place" (giggle). and i say "yeahhh hah" (giggling at the irony). and no, of course i don't believe that, but it's just amazing to me what people will say sometimes. really i know it's because eating disorders affect the minority, not the majority, so few non-disordered folks would ever assume their peer could be struggling with one. or the fact that people don't seem to notice when i'm barely eating at all at work (which probably means they also aren't noticing when i am, contrary to my continual self-consciousness).

wow i am superlate for work!