Thursday, February 26, 2009


i'm anxious right now. and i really wish i hadn't just eaten this:

cup of warm soymilk, 2 honey graham cracker sheets, and a piece of dark chocolate
** 1 dairy, 1 starch, 1 other **

i thought this was going to be a comforting snack, but really, all that is going through my mind right now is:

you just had an awesome dinner where you allowed yourself to indulge a little. why didn't you just stop?
you weren't hungry for this.
you ate too much today.

i was definitely hungry for most of today-- starving when dinner came, probably because of the run an hour and a half beforehand. at dinner i had 1.5 slices of barbeque chicken pizza with bbq sauce, roasted peppers, red onions, mozzarella and parm (SO good) and an amazing salad (roasted pears halved & baked with blue cheese on a bed of organic mixed greens with toasted almonds, homemade croutons & our pear vinaigrette), AND a hoegaarden. i felt guilty about the beer at first, but my friend got one too, and i thought it would go well with the meal (and it did). guessing my dinner (with the beer) was about ** 3.5 starch, 2 protein, 2 veg, 3 other, 1 dairy **.

... which would make my daily totals:

9.5 starch
4 dairy
2 fruit
3 veg
5 protein
7 other

i know this is a bit higher than most days. but i did run, and up through dinner i was quite hungry. so if the only bit i'm concerned about is the grahams&milk snack, i really shouldn't sweat it. i just can't help feeling like i'm just going to slowly get fat (i really need to tell that disordered voice in my head to take a hike).

i leave you with silly pictures of belle & me.

No comments:

Post a Comment